After two days marks my two-year travelling solo.
And I am completely free.
August of 2014 was a nightmare. My friends know that I didn’t have any problems but that was a fake gesture.
I can’t stay like that.
I can’t fool myself anymore.
Who says that I can’t be a broken hearted? I gave all of my life to her, I was stupid.
I had a positive mental attitude. I had a lot of hopes with our relationship.
I felt every pain stuck in my heart and mind.
My heart told me that I love her, but her words were not the same.
We were immature saying words each time was over, and then we found ourselves running into circles. We hung up and turned off the mobile phones, and then switched on after a few minutes.
I was in a coma by my own heart. Then she just called me and say sorry. She cheated on me.
“Is this what you call love?” The first question I asked.
“I can’t live without you, how did you do this to me?” I also don’t know why I told her that.
Maybe because I love her so much that time.
Six years in a relationship is not a joke.
I walked down the street of Makati city and my tears fell.
C’mon, why this shit happened to me. I want to run away if I will have a chance to do.
So I did.
Two years later, I found myself a forgiving person not because I want to forget her but because I realized that life is precious and we bleed because we are alive. Right?
Although I ran from that problem while trying to escape from a depression. It opened my eyes to a better world and became a motivated guy.
I want to have a life again.
IT is Okay Not To Be Okay
While we can’t control the feeling, we can definitely control how we think on the situation.
It is okay not to be okay. Shit happens, so be it.
Cry if you want to cry. Remember, crying doesn’t mean you are weak.
Damn. It is easy to say. But you are not really fine.
What do you want to do?
Grab him or her and you both will fly to the moon?
All is well. Put God in the center of everything.
TAKE A DEEP BREATH
Breath. A word that is easy to say but the hardest thing to do. Try to gain your normal breathing despite what happened. Go nearby places for now and gain your energy.
I don’t cry so hard, tears fell and can barely breathing.
MAKE A SPACE FROM YOUR PAST
I blocked her on Facebook and stopped sending messages. We may have a different situation.
Some can save their relationship but some cannot. It may depend on the reason but for me I call it QUITS.
It is over.
Creating a space means you will be in the process of healing. How will expect to heal the pain if you are following her or him on Instagram?
Secretly reading his or her post on Facebook? Damn.
You don’t want to see him or her on social media spending her or his new love with hilarious hashtags:
..or #Happy…and you are not!
I travel a thousand miles from my country and I started to appreciate our world. I got a chance to connect what was broken by valuing myself instead of getting a stressful life.
Once you have space, your pain will heal at the right time.
DIVERT YOUR MIND TO SOMETHING FRUITFUL
Once you created a space, there will be a necessity of diversion. I was in a country where no one knows me and what I had been through. I worked and enjoyed my time on writing the travel experiences that I had.
The world has become my home. I traveled different places and met extraordinary people.
My mind was diverted to the experiences that I want to do.
I was contented.
TRAVEL BECAME MY NEW LOVE LIFE
Travelling miles away from your place and eventually you are strong enough to meet the past and say ” Thank You” for giving you the lesson to live your life.
Trust me, you will not stop travelling. I did not realize that I am finally healed.
I did not forget her but I forgive her.
I finally found someone while travelling the world.
Time will heal everything through travel.
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